Grief truly comes in waves. You never know what will trigger it. My cousin died this last week. My dear Aunt, who I am very close to, has been guardian to her neice for a number of years and what grieves me is the fact that my dear Aunt is now grieving in this situation. There is really no way to get away from grief once you have experienced the loss of a child. I hear about a loss of any kind and it brings me back to my grief.
My Beth---she brought a lot of joy into our family. When she died--a light went out. Her sweet spirit lifted us all when we needed it the most. Her outlook on the fun things in life kept us all smiling----animals, flowers, trees, babies, rainbows, rain, snow, friends, cousins, family................ Many times I have wanted to have this same outlook, but recently, I am going through the motions----being happy---when I am really not happy----smiling when my heart is very sad. I know this is necessary but I am most thankful for those people in my life who let me be real---who let me say how it is-----who let me cry when I need to-----
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Just believe you will find joy and happiness again. What you all have been through takes much time to digest, to understand (if that can even humanly be done), to process. It's only been a year, and quite frankly, that's a short amount of time. I've felt my grief swarming me, too, lately. I wish that there was something that I could do. I mean this...please call anytime you need to talk or not talk and cry...whatever it may be. HUGS
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