Well this summer has been amazing on a lot of levels. Themes include: Hard work at our house to clear out a lot that has been weighing us down physically and
emotionally for 4 years-thanks for grandpa-Jodie &Donna's help; Sharing laughs-tears-fun-seriousness with my best friend who I had not seen in four years; Accepting that I may have to say a goodbye to my second mom who is not well and homesick for heaven; Dealing with remnants of grief & remnants of faith at the same time-ask me about these if you want; Working on whatever a "new normal" is supposed to be; Letting go without letting memories of dear Beth disappear; Figuring out what 'closure' means to those who have suddenly lost a precious child; Helping Jodie finish10th grade and seeing God doing amazing things as she prepares for 11th grade; Having my husband continue to be an amazing support to me, even in the midst of his daily, personal, emotional and physical pain that he deals with; Finding peace as we see our son Michael make daily steps to trust God with all that he deals with mentally and emotionally; Most of all seeing God's hand in my life every step of the way with true friends who always find a way to be genuinely supportive and have never ever put a timeline on our grief.
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Friend, you sound better! God proves faithful through it all. I understand the whole feeling like you need to let go. Don't. We don't have to let go but rather, move forward in faith that His ways are far better than ours. It doesn't make sense sometimes, while other times it starts to makes some sense when we rely on Him. I don't think He will ever reveal fully to use (this side of heaven) why He chose to take Beth and Ethan home when He did. It's not for us to know (Deut. 29:29), and yet, our human-flesh aches for the why's. Keep Beth in your hearts forever, and know that you can still grieve and talk about her. Don't feel pressured to let go. But also remember not to get too deep too often into your grief, because Jesus and Beth don't want that for y'all. Kive for what He has for you all today. He will continue to use your family for His glory for years to come! Hope that makes sense! Love ya!
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